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Volume Four: Lughnasadh 1992

Immortality
Change = Mortality

FERAL METTLE is a publication of @PRESS for the Empirickal Pragmatick Idealist's Coalescent, a PacTemple of the Illuminates Of Thanateros. It is produced and written solely by Pact members and novices. Any inquiries about our guild of chaos magicians can be answered (or at very least pondered over!) by writing us at

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FERAL METTLE is published approximately four times per year, at the mid-points between the Equinoxes and Solstices. Submissions are welcome, and should be typed, recorded onto a disk in ASCII format preferably, or uploaded to the PsyberNet BBS. All subscriptions for the FERAL METTLE, supplies, and publications can be obtained through the above address.

Contents of Volume 4

The Medicine Shield Fetish Rite by Damien.939 & Vortexxx.705

Poem Untitled by Soror Nefarious.000

The Lughnasadh Revel Workings:
1. A Butterfly Rite by Sorors Nefarious.000 & Mfecane.888
2. The Rite of Fire by the BABEL group

Bits and Pieces compiled from various sources

The Conjuration of Qisdygym by Fuck-Faced Moron.103, Novice

Dear Babby: by Columnist H. Beast

The Eye Of Kaos by Frater Dracoarte.024

Update to Date by Frater Psyber-Kia.995

THE MEDICINE SHIELD FETISH RITE.
by Damien.939, Novice: OMEN Asst. Vortexxx.705, Novice: OMEN

Purpose: The purpose of this rite is to create a "Medicine Shield Fetish" for whatever purpose one desires to make it for; it is a basic rite, and can be done by one or many people.

Introduction & Materials needed: The basic idea is to make a fetish in the form of a "Medicine Shield" that will manifest your wish. Such a fetish - for example only - might be made of a pentacle w/beads and feathers hanging' off of it, which will be used as a wall hanging or some such thing, as in Frater Rook.232's Fetish Rite. You may, if desired, have a photo of a Medicine Shield and clip images out of magazines, newspapers, etc., to make a collage in the Medicine Shield. For example, if you wish to do something to/for another, you may want to include a photo of them, or some of their hair, etc., in the making of your pentacle if you make it out of wax. As usual, be as creative as possible!

0) You should have your fetish on your altar with your magical weapons all around if possible, and begin a meditation on your fetish and the goal you have made the fetish for. Anoint the fetish with some fresh blood to give it life. Don't worry, only a drop of blood is mandatory; however, if you draw more blood, you might want to draw a pre-made sigil of your desire onto the fetish.

1) Shortly before anointing your fetish with fresh blood, cry: "HUT!"

2) After a moment of silence, cry: "ZODACARE!"

3) Then go to the east of your Work place and cry: "LOHIXOZ DIJOW!"

4) Then go to the north of your Work place and cry: "LOHIXOZ NOBO!"

5) Then go to the west of your work place and cry: "LOHIXOZ THALDOMA!"

6) Then go to the south of your Work place and cry: "LOHIXOZ ASHARA!"

7) This part of the rite is up to you as it depends on what your fetish is for. As such, you may want to write your own invocation using Barbaric or another language if desired, or even vernacular tongue. Be creative! I feel this part is too PERSONAL to write one general invocation for!

8) After your invocation is done, begin chanting 'CHOBUJO' until you've built up gnosis, and afterwards banish with Laughter!

Watch the stars falling
Black angel dust falling
Pouring, spilling, upon obsidian nightmares
Ride this beast across a plain of broken glass
Blood, churning, frothing,
Falling from the hooves in perfect teardrops
Quartz eyes drinking, suckling
Filling up the poisoned void
Your madness is your only privacy
The only demon of forgiveness
A Stonehenge in your velvet palm
The wet grass springing, reaching
Growing from your pores
This is the place to forget
Failure to reconcile memories
Ride this nightmare
The face was born of encumbering fury
A spark of sulfur and metal helpless
And hopeless against the shiny black dust
Of night, a burn hole in the synthetic fabric
Tearing, ripping, melting the thin objections
Of dreams, of paralyzed flesh
Your chemicals are trying to fill
Molecules spinning, turning
Moving through the nothing, failing to touch
One silver chain shining in the forgotten light
Proving that you exist Shaking the falling stars

by Soror Nefarious.000

A BUTTERFLY RITE
For Transformation.
by Sorors Mfecane.888 and Nefarious.000

This ritual is specifically intended as a Lughnasadh rite, though it can be performed at any time. Lughnasadh, by virtue of it's title, is a time of transformation, a time to express the multiple nature of existence. The Godform "Lugh" was a jack of all trades, able to be anything at any given time. The purpose of this rite is not to become like him, for we already are - the potential to be anything is there, the trick is in actualizing that potential. This ritual, therefore, is intended to bring this potential to action. Transformation is an ongoing process.

Though we always are several "selves," we are always becoming several others. Our existence is in constant motion. The caterpillar is unaware of exactly what kind of butterfly s/he will become, yet is aware enough of the potential to transform and proves this by being ready to cocoon when the time for change is near. In this rite, the random nature of existence is also utilized.

Though some may find this spooky, to willingly become something when you are unaware what it is you are becoming, it is generally the way of change. You know you will transform into that which you will to transform into as long as you allow yourself to simply do it, without multitudes of prearranging. After all, what have plans gotten you in the past, except confused? Things rarely turn out exactly as you plan them, especially those plans which involve transformation of the self, because the Subconscious will do what it contains regardless - so feed it well!

Before the rite is begun, draw upon yourself with water or wine a sigil that represents what you currently are. The idea is that this will evaporate during the rite.

The body of this rite consists of a journey, Shamanistic in a way but more active, during which you will search for the self which you will become, that which you are merely the potential for at this point. This journey will be entirely private and you are your own tour guide. Any mode of Gnosis you choose to employ will work just fine - though spinning/dancing and drumming are active parts of this process of the rite and should be plenty if they are all you choose to use as Gnosis technique. Everyone will be given a percussion instrument to beat in any rhythm which occurs to them. It is suggested that this drumming be used as a Gnosis inducing thingmajig. Also suggested is a switching of drums between participants. When you've found your future face / self / butterfly / psyche / personality / you, grab the paint. At this point you will begin to use the provided body / facepaints to paint yourself (face at least, and you can choose how far to go from the re) with a pattern which symbolizes that which you are now transforming into (i.e., the you found in that nifty Gnostic experience). There are no mirrors provided, just paint as that tricky Subconscious bids you to do... At the culmination of the ritual, when everyone feels adequately colorful as well as generally transformed, we will laugh hysterically and commence a drinking feast during which we will all look at each other funny. As stated, before the work is begun draw upon yourself with water or wine the sigil representing your current self.

1. Statement of Intent: "It is our will to transform."

2. Begin to visualize yourself as a caterpillar - cocoon on away, nice and comfy, then emerge as a nice bright pretty butterfly. Let your butterfly change it's pattern a bit, though, so as to ensure variety. When you've started to get this down nicely, grab a drum and beat away.

Invocation:
Fiacopa Curan Wingek Fach
Feth Uthedus Depenga Fach
Bujo Mantowik Ongo Gorthaz.

This may be said once or repeated several times, depending on the whim of the M.O.

3. Begin to move about, spinning and dancing and drumming, and take yourself on a nice little journey in search of that hidden potential self. When you're well into it begin the mantra:

SIFAM
(transformation)

There should be no thought of "timing," during any of this - the invocation may begin while your still cocooning, or while you're already beginning the journey. The point is to start the rite as soon as the statement of intent has been said and do each step at your own pace, the invocation can fall in anywhere during this. So, don't wait for any cues or silly things like that, transform at your own will.

4. When you've found that "self," promptly grab it and bring it back with you. Pick up a bottle (or two or three or four) of paint and prepare to get messy. Paint your face and anything else that occurs to you (except for the M.O.! But do feel free to paint the M.T.) in any random pattern or anti-pattern that occurs to you.

5. After you've painted yourself in a pattern corresponding to what you now are, think about how stupid you probably look and laugh heartily.

Notes: The invocation is in "Barbaric," a ritually generated Chaos/Ouranian language, except for the words "BUJO", "MANTOWIK", and "GORTHAZ" which were created by Sor. Mfecane for the purpose of this rite. The translation of the Invocation is as follows:

Penetrate the Æther
Find the Hidden Self
We become the Faceless Self
The Butterfly in Transformation.

THE RITE OF FIRE
by BABEL
FFM.103, Generica.022, and Sluttiva, Novices

The purpose of this rite is to invoke the archetypal fire spirit into one's own being. The basic formula to be kept in mind is Fire = Energy = Motivation. The gnosis to be employed is physical exhaustion. All must put out as much energy as they are capable of without harming themselves permanently. It proceeds as follows:

1. The leader of this rite and his assistants administer a sacrament of bread, "wine", and the ointment. All have been previously charged. Sip, do not gulp, the wine unless you are of a strong constitution!

2. The leader and assistants play on flute, drum and rattle. The tempo will begin slowly, but will build in speed and intensity. All should dance and flail wholeheartedly (no holding back!), while visualizing themselves as a mote in a huge flame.

3. The leader begins the invocation:

"Oh leaping lord of flaming fire
We invoke you - be here now!
Burn the mundane dross from us!
Slay our bodies on the pyre
And fill us with thy holy fire!
Entrobe! Destroy! Consume! Consume!
Our phoenix riseth from our doom!
Our skin! Our fat! Our hair! Our bones!
Our own cremation we intone!
We invoke thee!"

4. In unison, all shout the Mantra of Agni Deva at the top of their lungs, while dancing:

Jai Agni
Jai Agni Agni
Jai Agni
Jai Sri Agni

5. All continue to dance and repeat the mantra until collapse occurs. As each individual falls, They should let out a piercing "Hoo-Plah!". The Rite concludes when none are left standing.

Bits and Pieces...

"Sigmund Freud was acutely aware of the twin drives within the human being. He drew upon a tradition as old as mankind when he termed these forces Eros and Thanatos: Eros, the urge to love and achieve vicarious immortality through progeny; Thanatos, the death instinct which seeks Nirvana (literally "blowout," i.e., the extinguishing of self-awareness) as a goal and which perpetuates martyrdom in the species. ... Eros and Thanatos are twin brothers psychologically, and for the male of the species the two unite even more vividly at the physical level. Extending upwards from the second bone of the neck is a toothlike protuberance called the odontoid process. This "tooth" fits into a cradle in the top bone of the neck called the atlas. Execution of a man by hanging... This produces a simultaneous ejaculation at the exact moment of the final death convulsion." -Dr. John Mumford

"The wise man is he who does today what fools will do three days later." -Abdullah ibn Mubarak

"If it is true that 'diabolical' means essentially the coincidence of death and eroticism, and if the devil is in the end only our own madness; if we come to tears, if we shudder in sorrow - or if we are seized by fits of laughter - can we fail to perceive, linked to this nascent eroticism, the preoccupation with the haunting fear of death (of a tragic death, in a sense, even though laughable in spite of everything)?" -George Bataille

"No one believes this sentence." -Jean Buridan

"Love of one is a piece of barbarism: for it is practiced at the expense of all others. Love of God likewise." -Fred Nietzche

The Conjuration of Qisdygym by Fuck-Faced Moron.103, Novice: BABEL

I had occasion to use this rite only once, but it proved to be very effective. By way of explanation, qisdygym are a type of larvæ that affect the human nervous system. Basically, it will cause whomever it is attracted to to make "fatal errors", usually expressed as some physical clumsiness or inappropriate reaction. These malicious beasties should be conjured only as a tool of last resort against a known enemy, but what you chose to do is, of course, up to you.

The Rite is as follows:

1) Go to a body of obviously polluted water. This can be an ocean, lake, sewer or puddle; it makes no difference.

2) Take up some of the fouled water in a wooden bowl, upon the bottom of which you have drawn or inscribed a sigil of your intent.

3) Cut yourself and allow a few drops of your blood to mix with the contents of the bowl. While cutting yourself, you should visualize your named enemy causing you the pain.

4) Stare down into the water intently; do not blink or move whatsoever. Project a sphere of blackness about the size of a pea into the bowl.

5) Intone:

"With the mouth of the jackal I call you; From the depths of Urillia I call you; From the blackness of myself I call you; Ia Azathoth! Ia Azathoth! Ia Azathoth! I smash the shining trapezohedron! Qisdygym approach! Bind yourself to (enemy's full name)! Wrap your coils around (enemy's full name)! Drink the life of (enemy's full name)! Qisdygym I command you! With the mouth of the jackal I call!"

While doing all of this, one should visualize each of the pictures implied in the evocation. The qisdygym itself appeared to me as a deep red-brown eel with the head of a rat and a prehensile snout, but I have no way of knowing whether it would appear this way to anyone else.

It is important to keep the water from which you call forth the qisdygym and the bowl. Put them away from the eyes of others, and do not expose them to sun or moonlight. When you are certain that the larva has finished its job, you should burn the bowl, perform a banishing of some sort over the flame, and then pour the water into the fire.

It is likewise important that you do not name the qisdygym, nor even think about it after you have sent it off after its victim. Doing so is certain to call the creature back to you, in which case you will become its host and suffer its affections. Keep tabs on your victim! Once the qisdygym has done its work, it will return to you, and you may not be aware of its presence until it is too late. To give some idea of the sort of thing a qisdygym is capable of, the victim I targeted had a horrendous motorcycle accident (?) and suffered permanent brain damage. Don't let this happen to you!

Have fun, but be careful. And remember, neither myself nor any other individual bears and responsibility for the uses to which you put these lovely little nasties, nor the results you may have.

Namast‚ gezundheit!

Dear Babby:
by Harry "Krishna" Beast, Frater Three.1415926...

"I think that the only thing better than fucking is to sit in a warm bath filled with Mr. Bubble. Are there any occult techniques that I could use to do magick in the tub?" Professor Plum, Niagara Falls, NY
Well Pruney, glad you mentioned it! There are a number of activities well suited to warm tub-works, just visit your local bath house to find out what I mean (if any are still open in your neck of the woods)! I've heard seasoned magicians arise from a satisfying bath with all kinds of ideas. It put a smile on their faces. There's something about floating in warm water that's just peachy for womb-to-move-around-in experiments, masturbation, astral travel, and the entropic delights of stewing in your own juices. Just lay back, close your eyes, and soak in the WARM. Herbs, rubber duckies, dildoes, and yes, even Mr. Bubble can be dispensed with - the lightness created by heavily salinated water approximates floating, and if you can manage to casually let the stopper out, you'll come down from your trip with a squish, rather than a thud.

"Magic. Bah-humbug. Most magicians I know don't even call themselves magicians. There are plenty of magicians out there however, who seem to have nothing better to do than to endlessly judge magicians by the color of their skin, the origin of the techniques they use, and the gender of the people they sleep with, and who's got the lineage bullshit. A lot of them are awfully sure of themselves, and little me, with no pyramid of degrees I can call my own, feel a little bit intimidated by this. The y know what's right, don't they?" Alex Antinomian, Sirius delta, AL

Alex, Alex, Alex... Of course they do! Money, the Ego-stroke, and Insecurity are the bread and butterballs of the Great and Terrible White-washed Brotherhood! And why do you confuse Magic with Politics, anyway? Politicians and Magicians are both shrewd and tactful, but magicians do it for fun, whereas politicians! We all know what they do it for, don't we?

If you have questions for Babby, feel free to write Him c/o EPIC.

THE EYE OF KAOS by Frater Dracoarte.024

Introduction

Tools used: Sigils, Black Magick Mirror, Herbal Extract and Magical Tools of the Art.

The Eye of Kaos is a Ritual to open a doorway to the realm of Kaos. The below ritual is designed to divine information, but is easily modified for use in enchantment (see the notes at the end of the ritual). The intent of the ritual is that a group o f sigils be created, known as the control group, used over a period of time. It is suggested that if one is performing this ritual for purposes of divination that one also copies the original questions and their sigils and seals them in a envelope. Keep them in a safe place away from the control group and out of sight and out of mind. A few days later one takes the control group and performs the ritual below. The ritual below for divination should be performed for each sigil separately. At the end of the working of one's Control Group, the operator will compare hir answers with the sigils and those original questions sealed in the envelope. This allows the operator to recover and apply hir information gained while still bypassing the psychic censor. A similar technique can be used for enchantment work but is discouraged because of the potential lust for results. The number of sigils and the period of days one will spend on this rite should be decided beforehand, one sigil per day.

THE EYE OF KAOS

1) The operator will open hir working space.

2) Statement of Intent: "It is our will to open the Eye of Kaos"

3) Then the operator will charge a randomly chosen sigil taken from the control group and charging it from a gnostic state through the use of the mantra below while staring at the sigil:

XIQUAL SODUV UTOK UTHEDUS (PHENOMENIZING AND DIVINING OF THE MOST PROBABLE FUTURE)

4) Attach the charged sigil onto the back of the mirror, then lay the mirror on the floor with it's face up.

5) The operator will now charge a Herbal extract using their Magickal tools of the cup, wand, pentacle, and dagger. The cup will be filled with herbs that represent opening of the senses and psychic powers (such as Frankincense, Honeysuckle, Marigold, Mastic, Nutmeg, Thyme, Wormwood, or alternatively blood, semen, or other body fluids would work) while sitting it upon the pentacle. Then the operator will stir the mixture with their wand while repeating the mantra:

HEN Y RAK

(OPEN THE EYE OF SET, THE DOORWAY TO KAOS)

After the power has gathered in the cup one grabs their dagger and plunges it into the cup yelling:

KIA!

6) Next the operator will "open" hir Black Mirror to the void of Kaos by pouring the Herbal Mixture onto the Blackmirror and rubbing it in with a cloth. The operator should rub counterclockwise staring into the blackmirror and when the Herbal Extract is in, sit on hir haunches and stare into the blackmirror awaiting information; once received it should be record.

7) Then next the mirror should be covered and banishment with laughter follows. The mirror should be thoroughly washed with water as one is laughing to complete the closing of the Eye of Kaos.

NOTES: This ritual can also be adapted to casting a sigil into the Eye of Kaos for the purpose of enchantment instead of divination, in step #3 the mantra will be change to the below mantra:

THOVAAD UTHEDUS CHO HUT

(ENCHANTING THE FUTURE TO START)

and in step #5 one will change the herbs to reflect the nature of your work. In step #6, after one has open the Eye Of Kaos, one stares into the mirror and then "throws" his sigil into the Eye (i.e. one visualizes the sigil throw into the void).

I must acknowledge the inspiration given to me by the work of my fellow Templars of EPIC, many of their ideas I adapted for this ritual, THANKS.

Update to Date by Frater Psyber-Kia.995

I'm sure many of you have been wondering what the Hel's been happening to correspondence lately. By way of apologies, Frater Rook and I broke up our move to new locales by way of a vacation in Hawaii. Not to mention (well I'll mention it anyway) the Postal Service's delays in forwarding mail! Therefore, some letters addressed to us have remained unanswered for two months or more!

The new address for EPIC is listed in this volume of the Feral Mettle, as is the new PsyberNet accessing number. We will now continue in our efforts, started in vAnaheimr, to make this PacTemple a bona-fide "not for profit" Coalescent, enabling us to defer some of the costs of our work. In regards to the PsyberNet, we are working toward setting up various Chaos Magic bulletin boards around the country in a net-mail matrix. This will inevitably defer some of YOUR costs incurred from calling the tech-gno-system here on the west coast!

"Liber Kaos, the Psychonomicon" by Peter J. Carroll, is finally off Weiser's drawing board and should be released by September 1992.

The Air Loki Project is now underway; in collaboration with EPIC, the BABEL group in San Francisco have begun collecting donations toward a "Chaosrity" fund for geographically distant and financially modest Pact members and Novices. The fund will be put towards a plane ticket to fly out to our Revels here in Kalifornia on a one-way basis. Randomly drawn from the people who are active, available, and interesting, we'll choose names from a hat for the next Revel when $500 has been reached. Send your donations to their address in San Francisco.

PacTemple Valis has changed its address; they may now be reached via Post Office Box 17995, Irvine, Ca. 92713

We are moving away from our mail-order literature offerings. In the works is a three-ring binder (for new inclusions) containing all the miscellaneous rituals, essays, and up-dates as they happen under one one-time fee for Pact members and three-month or more Novices only. (...suggestions?) Introductory material, much of which may be found in "Liber Kaos, the Psychonomicon", will still be available to interested candidates who cannot access the PsyberNet. We will still be managing the jewelry (a new pendant is on the way!), video and audio cassettes, and books via post until we get that transporter we ordered.

Look, we have to learn to do things ourselves. The Pact is a convenience to ideas and impetus to better our techniques and philosophies regarding magical experimentation. It's not easy to get access to our guild, but certainly six months of consecutive, daily writing in a journal shouldn't be a hindrance. I bring this up because questions still come in to me after my article about "The Founding of a PacTemple" was published in the last volume of the FERAL METTLE.

It is important to differentiate between what a "Guild" is, versus an "Order." A guild is a group of working craftspeople, whereas an order is a group composed of people who all have the same belief. The Magical Pact of the Illuminates Of Thanateros could not exist as an order and still be called a chaotic entity. We simply co-exist and share our experiments within the Pact; we have no Holy Book, no dogmas, and no rigid set of beliefs outside of the magic theatre.

Pick up your sword! ... then pick up your pen.

CONTACT ADDRESSES IN AMERIKA

Electronic Communication for the Amerikan Pact is facilitated by the PsyberNet BBS, accessible 24 hours, up to 2400 bps at (805)772-AS IF(2743).

In our efforts to get people in touch with other (net)working chaos magicians we are constantly updating our address bases. If you would like to have your address published at the end of the next FERAL METTLE, please state this in your next letter to us. Post Office boxes are preferred, from experience, and you must be an active Novice or Pact member to be listed.

Pacific Time

ARF c/o Rick
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URAEUS c/o Yraina
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SEATTLE WA 98145-1146

BABEL
POST OFFICE BOX 26362
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Central Time

OMEN
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Shalutasa.104 c/o C. Wagner
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Eastern Time

REGEN GUSS
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